So...
Bakas (grandpa) dari keluarga bapak gue just passed away yesterday. I was so shocked that i didnt even manage to meet him before.. he was sick for years. And let me tell u, i regret that much now..
Jadi, hari ini gue adek gue (naura) dan pacc (ico) berencana untuk ke rawamangun. Yes, rumahnya bakas dan nini sejak dulu..
Sepanjang jalan jadi inget dulu pas kecil suka banget ke rumah nini & bakas, atau ke rumah sodara2 lainnya. Makan pempek, makan ikan selar kering dikasih kecap, mandi di bathub nya nini, dan bahkan sampe detail2 ruangan di rumahnya pun dulu gue afal :')
Time flies..
i still remember the day when my dad called me and said that Nini miss us and really want to talk to us..
akhirnya jadi lah itu nini kondisinya di rumah sakit, nelfon gue dan naura. Said few things, and of course that she miss us a loooot. I cried. She was talking just fine, so i thought nothing's gonna happen...
And i wasnt know if that day, she was about to go...
I, Naura, couldnt meet her for the last time...
NYESEL PARAAAAAAAHHHHH. Harusnya waktu itu nerima ajakan ayah dianterin ke rumah sakit, but i ignored :"(
Sekarang sama kejadiannya kayak bakas. Waktu ketemu bapak kemarin, bilang kapan2 mampir dong tengokin bakas. Udah sakit dr lama. Dan... gue pun gatau kapan itu bakal terjadi, sampe sekarang udh gaada kayak gini.. astaghfirullah gue merasa gue cucu gagal :(
Dan yap, hari ini kita kesana. Tahlilan. Ngobrol dan peluk2 erat semua saudara, tante2 yg ada, semuanya pada seneng ngeliat kita. I also introduced my boyfriend as well, i think they pretty much like him.
AND THE DAY HAS COME...
Gue ketemu istrinya bapak. Dan 2 anak laki2nya. Well, i cant lie to myself. I cant help myself to be nice in front of her. I JUST CANT :"( dammit..
Ya. Susah men..
naura sih fine2 aja. Pretends like she's okay with her existence. Like nothing's happened..
Naura ya naura. Gue ya gue. Hehe. Mungkin karena dulu ibu sering nangis2 dan ceritanya ke gue jd gue ketularan ya bs jadi sepeka ini :')
Ya intinya gt deh... pas pulang jg kayak mau nangis karena berbagai rasa penyesalan yg sudah tak terbendung lagi..
hopefully, everything is gonna be more fine after this. Who knows?
